I am fighting a battle. Sometimes, I win; sometimes, I lose. Sometimes, I hide from the battle; sometimes, I engage with all swords swinging. I’ve fought this battle with diabetes since 2005.
This morning, I woke up to the fact that I was, once again, in losing mode. I sat quietly, praying about my battle, asking the Lord what in the world I could do to move beyond “square one.” He reminded me of the Scripture in 1 Corinthians 16:13-14 (NLT): “Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong. And do everything with love.”
As I pondered those words, I was reminded of Colossians 1:9 that “God will fill me with the knowledge of His will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding.”
What do those verses have in common? Well, they may not speak to you, but they said volumes to me.
I realize that I have knowledge…knowledge of my battlefield…knowledge that God is on my side…knowledge that He is helping me. I know what the battle is and I know what to do to combat the enemy.
I realize that I also have understanding. I know what the battle looks like; I understand the ramifications of losing the daily skirmish. My understanding is high, as is my knowledge. So, what am I lacking?
Wisdom. I began asking God for His wisdom on how to use the knowledge and understanding I already have. I began to feel His smile as He said softly to my soul, “Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong…”
So, today I go into my daily battle, sword in hand, covered with His armor, moving toward victory. I’m standing firm, being courageous, and strong…in the power of His might.
I’ve asked to be removed from this battle, and so far, He hasn’t granted that desire. But He has given me His sufficiency to stand firm, knowing Jesus is standing at my side and His Holy Spirit lives within to conquer my foe.
Sometimes, you can’t pick your battles, but you surely can decide how you are going to fight. And, you can stand with the One who has already won.