I don’t know about you, but I hate being disappointed. I would almost rather have something happen that makes me mad. Disappointment seems to swirl up and stick in my heart. Anger comes and just as quickly, goes. But not disappointment. It seems to think it should live on for a while.
I’ve been disappointed in a lot of different ways. Sometimes, I’m disappointed in the way a circumstance ended. Or perhaps, a friend has betrayed me. Or I’m just plain ol’ disappointed in myself. There are so many ways that disappointment can reign in my life.
I had one of those moments last week. I didn’t quite know how to react, so I did my normal “just pull it in and internalize it” trick. No fun, to be sure.
Then, I finally did what I should have done all along – I took it to the Lord. I explained the situation to him, stating plainly that I knew I couldn’t do one thing to make it different. He began to move in my heart and mind to bring me back to His way of thinking.
He reminded me that He is the blessed controller of ALL things. He reminded me to hand this over to Him. To literally place this in my hands, palms up, then, turn them over and place it in His hands, pulling my hands back and releasing the entire situation to Him.
I did so. Then, He reminded me that I am to praise Him in all things. Really, Lord? All things? Even this? His answer was Yes. So, I did. This was much harder. Praising Him shows I am actually believing He can handle this.
I found that He just wants me to “be still and know that He is God.” I should change things if they are in my power, but otherwise, just trust that He’s at work. Finally, He reminded me of the second verse of one of my favorite hymns, “I Will Trust When I Cannot See” by John W Peterson, written in 1970.
The words go like this:
“When I face the sting of disappointment; when my dreams lie rumbled in the dust; When my best adds up to loss and failure; when the things that happen seem unjust.
I will trust when I cannot see; when I’m faced with adversity and believe His will is always best for me. I will trust when I cannot see.”
It takes a conscious decision to not let disappointment reign in my life. I choose to allow the God of the Ages, the One Who loves me and is working on my behalf, to take His rightful place in the activities of my life and to bring His joy in abundance to replace my disappointment.